Wondering

Each day I think I know what I want and who I am. But something happens and makes me question my beliefs. Some say I should not overthink everything through and yet I have sleepless nights wondering why I said yes and why I said no. Why I feel something is right and why I feel something is wrong. I live in a society with far to many rules and regulations and whether I like it or not, it is my truth that my choices are effected by them. Looks like this ‘I don’t care’ person seems to care after all.

Some say I’m crazy. Some say I’m rude. Some say I’m irritation but most days I’m just trying to figure out life just as they do. Maybe our means are not the same, maybe my overthinking can come of as lame, but what can I do?? Just telling me to stop won’t change my feelings and make the questions go away.

I don’t know what to say and I don’t know how to let this go. I don’t know how to be the chill laid back person and stop saying no. I don’t know how to stop being rude and confused. I don’t know how to stop second guessing some of my decisions. Although I love the people around me, somedays I wonder whether it is best to be left alone.

Thanks for reading.

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